Currently Listening Mind, Body & Soul By Joss Stone see related

so, i'm bored, and don't want to do anything.  i'm at the beginning of my semester...my FINAL semester, and i don't wanna do any work. i'm sad b/c my closest friend here at school recently started seriously dating this guy and i'm sick of it happening for everyone else but me. ok, maybe not everyone else, but seriously...this is annoying. i miss her and hate having to be the 'third' wheel, which is never fun. i'm invited to hang with them...but how often do i need to completely feel like a loser? and now she's going out of town with him all weekend..boo. also, i'm back after a great christmas break...and the reality of being back in morgantown has set in. i can't wait till i get to leave and start a life outside of this shithole of a town. ok, so the town's not that bad...but i'm in a pissy mood...i think i'm allowed a little exaggeration. also, some of my 'favorite' kids from my job dropped out of school, so they're not here to have fun with...i'm just low and i don't foresee anything changing in the future...i'm gonna be working my ass off...with little -to -no time for a life anyways. it's just gonna be a lonely next few months. (that is if nothing happens with my new EMT interest...but even that is a far stretch)

if i was a counelor, i'd ask myself...what are you gonna do to make this change? well...i'm gonna call this guy, and i'm gonna try to stay positive about my friend and her new boyfriend, and i'm gonna accept reality after a vacation...and i'm gonna start looking for where i'm going after may, but right now...i'm down and low. in the words of a new co-intern...it is what it is.